Weeks 28 to 34
I am so grateful and blessed that my baby boy and I are doing well during the th
ird trimester. To be completely honest there has been a constant mix of emotions ranging from fear to pure joy and excitement.
I dreaded my first trimester symptoms making a comeback which luckily they didn’t thankfully. Instead of feeling nauseous, good aversions, migraines, metallic taste in my mouth, and bloated I felt a different set of symptoms.
I felt huge and heavy and all around sluggish and lazy. I didn’t want to go anywhere and became a real homebody. Getting in and out of the car was getting more difficult, my pace was just slower and I had to learn to be patient with myself. The guilt that I felt everyday I didn’t get much done was real and I would sometimes just sit and have a good cry. My emotions and hormones were at an all time high and so I started meditating more and trying different ways to relax.
Oddly, I became a night owl. Baby boy was active during the day but his kicks at night were so powerful they would wake me up as if to say feed me! So I would get up in the middle I’m the night early and just eat, watch YouTube videos and read up on baby’s development. It was strange to be sleeping during the day and being awake most of the night and reminded me of the all nighters I used to pull back in university. I had so much energy at night and would be exhausted during the day and now looking back I cherish those moments that my baby boy and I shared.
With all the extra weight and discomfort of back pain, swelling, waddling, constantly peeing, late night hunger, insomnia and everything in between I still feel grateful everyday.
I have read and heard stories of miscarriage and stillbirths, babies who never made it home or were born sleeping and I don’t know if it was just me or if other pregnant women feel the same way but it was always in the back of my mind.
A loss at any stage is tragic but a late miscarriage seems it would be the most devastating and unbearable. Having had an early miscarriage before I became pregnant again, I know how it changed and impacted me so I could not even fathom what a loss further along would feel like. I remember feeling helpless and even hopeless and wouldn’t wish that upon anyone.
Weeks 35 to 37
With this pregnancy I am taking things day by day and just really thanking God for blessing me each day. With my appointments getting more frequent now I am nearing the finish line; the grand prize and greatest reward, my sweet, precious baby boy.
My ultrasounds are now every two weeks! As a result of having gestational diabetes the ob wants to make sure baby boy isn’t growing too big and that he and I are healthy. It is a bit more often than I would like but the silver lining is that I get to see my baby boy every two weeks.
My husband and I took a hypnobirthing class a couple of weeks ago and would like to attempt an all natural, drug free birth at the hospital without any intervention. That all went out the window when I was told that my baby boy was getting big and that I would need to be induced during my 39th week of pregnancy.
This news was disheartening as I was told that induced labours are harder and lengthier and that any medical intervention intensifies contractions and pain. Wanting to avoid induction and attempt to go into labour on my own, I set out on a mission to induce labour.
I spent time reading about natural ways to induce labour and watching countless YouTube videos to see how others ‘induced’ their labours. Saying I tried to induce labour is an understatement.
Stay tuned for my next post where I discuss what methods I tried to induce labour.
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Stay strong and beautiful!